Wednesday, February 29, 2012


     I'm really good at being motivated .... for about 2 weeks. After that I lose it! This happens with a lot of things: hobbies, fitness, goals ... WHY is this??? No clue. But it's something I've become more and more aware of lately, and something that I really want to change. The two most immediate areas are: my quiet times with Jesus and fitness. In that order. The quiet times I've actually been doing very well on, and for more than two weeks! In fact, during lulls in my day (driving, doing dishes, folding laundry) I find myself talking to God rather than thinking about anything else. This has been AMAZING. I used to marvel at people who would talk about how they could just talk to God as a friend, and now I'm realizing more and more how that could be possible. God has also been showing me just how well He knows me, and knows what is best for me. I love my Jesus.

     Fitness is a totally different story. I am so BAD at staying motivated! For two weeks I'll do great, then I'll lose momentum for a day or so and I'll just totally lose focus! Why does that happen??? That's next on my list of things to figure out. I do have some ideas though.
     Usually I go to the gym with a buddy. On days when this doesn't happen I try and go to the gym by myself. This doesn't always happen, but when it does, it isn't as effective as it could be. This is because, primarily, I'm too intimidated by others to focus the way I should on myself. I've started using free weights (which I LOVE) and I haven't tried to do them by myself yet, but I don't know that I'll be brave enough! Isn't that silly? I get so nervous that someone will come up to me and say, "You're doing it wrong! What are you even doing here? Go use the elliptical. Oh wait, you can't, you fall off of that thing." So silly of me.
     Eating better is ALSO difficult, mostly because I don't have self control when it comes to food. I can't limit my intake of desserts and sweets, so I try to cut it out cold turkey. This works for two weeks, but then I eat a cookie and think, "Screw it. EAT ALL THE COOKIES!" And then it's just a downward spiral. On Monday I started my healthy eating and exercise routine, and then YESTERDAY (Tuesday) the 5 boxes of Girl Scout cookies I had ordered arrived. TALK ABOUT TIMING. So they're in my cupboard and the freezer, unopened, taunting me. Jerks.

     Anybody out there have any tips on staying motivated?

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Catching Up

I've abandoned my blog. Oops, sorrynotsorry. Quick rundown of the past two months:

  • Christmas was wonderful. I was home for 6 whole days and it was so wonderful to be able to spend time with my friends and family back in Los Osos.
  • We had a party at our apartment for New Year's Eve, and we had a good turnout of about 25 people. Lots of fun, lots of food, definitely a night to remember.
  • I started going to the gym back in December with my gym buddy, and we've been able to go pretty regulary unless one of us is sick or otherwise inconvenienced (which happens more often than we should). While I haven't had any changes in my physique, it feels good to be active and to feel our endurance build up.
  • I got the stomach flu over the weekend. Around midnight one night I woke up and was    S-I-C-K in pretty much every way. It was miserable. I was waking up every 30-45 minutes rushing to the toilet, and ALL I WANTED was water, but even that was making me throw up. It was one of the worst nights I'd ever had. The next two days I could hardly do anything so I just laid low and didn't mind it.
  • Last night my brother and I went to a casting call for Wheel of Fortune. The event was at Morongo Casino, and it was l-oooooo-n-g. I realized a few things.
    • I HATE casinos. I'd never spent that much time in one before and it. was. gross. It smelled like alcohol, sweat, stale cigarettes, greed, and desperation. Don't think I'll be going to Vegas any time soon.
    • My flats from Target aren't good shoes to wear if I'm going to be standing for 4 hours.... OW.
    • ALWAYS carry a water bottle.
    • Brothers are good company.
    • Wheel of Fortune is a HARD SHOW TO GET ON. Everyone fills out an application and they draw names to pick people who get to try out. Neither my brother nor I got chosen, but we had fun, nonetheless. Hightlight: a woman named Candi Ham. Seriously. And there was an angry drunken gay cowboy who kept talking to us, a woman wearing a tie who likes to raft and drink beer, a wedding planner who talks so fast I don't think her sentences have words, and many other interesting characters. I agree with what Robert said when I asked him if he'd ever want to go to another audition: Well, maybe not TOMORROW.....

Maybe I'll keep this thing updated, maybe not.

"Two guys walk into a bar, the first guy says to the bartender, 'I'll have an H2O.' The second guy says, 'I'll have an H2O 2.' The second guy dies."